Thursday, December 21, 2006

argh... raining for e past few days
so sian stay at home
so train my ffx characters
haha. not bad.. bt chocobo racing is killing me
oso playin ffx-2
wahh. dresspheres a lil too hot bahh.
haha. yahh! sat going out. finally
n nxt week can sing k again!
wooohooo!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

i think i've gone too far
its time im brought baq
to be scolded or something
i think after i act
so tts really damned shit
this will stop
i promise
cuz i know its already v bad
i must not make it worse
so from now on
no more JS
no more scandals
no more gossips(from me larr)
until maybe when everything's over

Saturday, December 16, 2006

i think im too tired to blogg soo much
just haf main pts
okk. went yh's hse
play mahjong
go eat zi cha
SONG BO!
eat LIKE FREE!
went baq
gossip
n tok abt our pasts
someone kena JS LIKE FREE larr
damn funny
haha SONG BO!
denn went in yh's rm
tok tok tok LIKE FREE
den 830am liao
went to slp
9am woke up
SONG BO!
den all go home
den at nite go watch IMF
v all over e park
some parts not bad
bt not even e songs cld save the show
bt chen song ling is sing LIKE FREE
SONG BO larr!
deng miao hua oso LIKE FREE!
SONG BO lorr!
den went e xing wang hk restaurant
eat french toast
den chiong to busstop w yl n ht
den siao liao lahh
reach home gonna collapse
tml going kbox
which is like
SONG BO!
sing LIKE FREE man!
haha
den sunday go hkhk
SONG BO!!
wednesday to sunday all go out
SIAO LIAO LARR SONG BO LIKE FREE!!!



haha
=,=

Friday, December 15, 2006

hui guan 20th anniversary,
drunkard, jiawei.


Wednesday, December 13, 2006

everything just came
and hit me like
a few million bullet trains
if i could take it
den i wont b me
i snapped
i broke down
the only person
beside me thoughout
thanks
i really really thank you
and e one hu gave me
advice encouragement
thanks too
and wad KT said in his blog

"Dont keep things between just one or two people if you not happy with another person....."

"You all are all friends, so talk like friends....... It is precisely because you all are friends thats why anything not happy must take out and discuss (take note, discuss not quarrel)"

"And start to learn to take criticism.........."

i totally agree
actually
i've brought up this issue
many times
bt decided against it
cuz i noe its my fault
bt sometimes
things only can be solved
when u tok
and thrash things out
agreed
its onli 3 days
and im alrdy
facing so many probs
im still wondering if i can
hold on till e end of prod
when i can go knock my head
on the nearest wall
whatever it is
i apologize to anyone hu's
involved
for being over sensitive
and my ocasional swearings


If i had a choice, i rather be a less sensitive person...

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

ev i yldiymmo pudranat du dnyhcmyda drec bucd,
dryhg oui
yd maycd e ghuf dd drana'c cusauha e lyh dnicd & dymg du
uid drana
liq e naymmo vaam ymuha yht cdnaccat
du pa ruhacd
e hjn naymmo fyc rybbo demm dra lysb
pd ajah drui e ahzuoat ed
e cdemm ryt desac vaamehk
ynkr
ahuikr uv fycdehk ouin desa
es cunno
oui lyh cdub naytehk huf
it suddenly seems to me
tt no matter wad i do or say
it somehow seems wrong to me
always feels like i did something wrng
and i always don't know why
n i discovered
i do care how ppl see me
im just too ****ed up to admit
hai...

Monday, December 11, 2006

....
......
.........
i feel tt im thinking too much?
or issit the truth tt wad i fear
is actually happening?
or maybe its cuz im closing up
whatever it is im not happy
i doubt its gonna go away
and it will stay for awhile

maybe i start to not trust ppl?

maybe due to my role in e production?

maybe cuz of my actions or words?

maybe the heavens detest me?

maybe its just me......

feel like im drifting away though
the camp made me feel happy

i seem to have found a new shell
and gotten cozy in it
hopefully i can still get out
hopefully.....

i can only hope...

Sunday, December 10, 2006

"if u dun like the job, say it

if u are neutral about it, why not give it a try?

if u like the job, give it ur 200%"

tts wad ys said to me
i thought abt it
i chose the 2nd option
i've always felt PM was a v impt job
and its really taxing
well its true
bt i didnt expect it to hit me like a bullet train
one day i was just being a normal Jing tuan mem
the next im a PM
cldn't really react
bt having a short convo w ys
i felt tt im ready to take on e role
thks ys
owe u one!

everyone: lets all work hard together and make this producation a successful one!
10 am____

had breakfast with my dad
watch e big screen tv soccer
and starting discussing abt ytd's matches

1pm_____

left hse for hkhk
cux today discussing abt our production
with liren
hmm
when we split creative n management
i stayed at management
cuz i wanted to be SM
but din get it so im e PM
hmm
im actually not v vocal
when it comes to this kind of things
i don't voice out my ideas much
so i'll just hafto learn how to deal
with mani diff ppl
and of cuz myself too




guys.. if u feel tt im nt doing a gd job as a PM pls.. tell me...
thks...
today is discuss script/mahjong day
went paya leyba mrt to meet des
to find out tt char's house is like
soooooo near tpy
argh!!!!!!!!!!
haha
oh heck
ok
went char's hse 1st ting we did
play with her dogs
nana and oreo
haha
soo cute!
ok den started mahjong
dey played n some watch others
jenga(isst spelt liddat?)
den arnd 6 we started to think
brainstorming
brainwaving
whatever
lots of ideas
cldnt settle when me n yx hadta go
watch yue juan lao shi's pe4mance
Mama looking for her cat
lao shi asked me to go watch
so i did
haha
e show was nice
thou i had some parts i din understand at first
really touching
also touches on the issue abt love
mother's love for her children
den on the way home
suddenly lots of things went thru my mind
quickly typed it down
reached home den discovered
2 out of 3 of the xiao pings areout
and tml is e script discussion/writing session
cool
gheez.. getting tired... slpin soon..

n guys..




remember to turn to the person nxt to u and...
u know the rest....
*HuGG*
20th aniversary dinner ytd.
be4 tt rushed ome frm huiyi's hse
den to tpy mrt to meet up with da galx
tze looked mature
huitian looks young
yonglin looks.... yonglin(haha! bt its true!)
went n meet e rest at starbucks
tooked abt our merger and, no not seperation, 3 xiao ping
getting somewhr bt still nowhr
bt still we went to e dinner with our minds full of ideas
i saw so many ppl i don't know
tts e 'dai jia' of being e 11th 'jie'
gone mad
drank red wine n beer
went half-drunk bt nt blurtting out silly stuff
den we took pics
'yam seng'-ed
'xie xie' -ed
and gone crazy
bt slowly settled down larr
came home and dieded

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

argh.. cld haf done this quiz earlier.. was supposed to do ytd night.. too tired.. i shall think its ytd nite den... rewind<<<<<

1) How old do you wish you were? 17
2) Where were you when 911 happened? at home playing gameboi
3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money? make sure it returns me
4) Do you count yourself kind? eh, a lil?
5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? e baq of my neck
6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? eh chinese? n english?
7) Do you know your neighbours? sure~
8) What do you consider a vacation? spending e whole day out with my friends
9) Do you follow your horoscope? sometimes..
10) Would you move for the person you loved? if i cld i wld.
11) Are you touchy feeling? eh? qn marks.....
12) Dream job? hmm.. actually being an SM or a PM
13) Favorite channel(s)? oh. alot. chnnl U, AXN,CartoonNetwrk,ZhongTian,TVBS,ESPN so on
14) Favorite place to go on weekends? TOA PAYOH!!!!(including hui guan)
15) Showers or Baths? showers
16) Do you paint your nails? NO!!!!!!!!
17) Do you trust people easily? hmm. yeah.
18) What are your phobias? eh. afraid of being alone? is tt counted?
19) Do you want kids? yes n no
20) Do you keep a handwritten journal? nah..
21) Where would you rather be right now? rather be in camp
22) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy? hmm.. good qn.. nvr thout abt tt.
23) Heavy or light sleeper? definitely HEAVY
24) Are you paranoid? hmm... a lil? or isst alot?
25) Are you impatient? yes.. but im learning how to
26) Who can you relate to? basically anione close to me
27) What's your favorite pick-up line? walao/wad the hell
28) What's your main ringtone on your mobile? eh.. FF winning theme
29) What were you doing at midnight last night? blogging
30) What did the last text on your cellphone say? "wad time you all start tml :)" frm sizhao
31) Whose bed did you sleep in last night? my own
32) What color shirt are you wearing?
white
33) Name three things you have on you at all times? phone, wallet and clothes
34) What color are your bed sheets? blue
35) How much cash do you have on you right now? ZERO!!!
36) What is your favorite part of the chicken? feet!!
37) What's your favorite town/city? can i count hui guan as a small city??
38) I can't wait till..? friday when i can see every1 again!!
39) What did you have for dinner last night? oh. alot of food!!! and rose syrup n root beer
40) Do you own a gun? yes!! a 39cm-$4.9-waterGun
41) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? tea
42) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? at hui guan thinking abt wad im doing now
43) Last thing you ate? eh.. a pear?
44) What songs do you sing in the shower? mostly chinese n eng, jap n korean, sometimes indian
45) Last thing that made you laugh? hui guan peeps
46) Worst injury you've ever had? hmm. cant think of ani
47) What's your favorite candy? eh... tic-tac?
48) What song do you want played at your funeral? eh.. cant decide
49) Ten random people to do this? eh. dey can all do randomly
50) Say 'Goodbye' to yourself? NO~~ it sounds stupid to say this in e sch lib!!

Monday, December 04, 2006

ok..
finally had free time to blog
was so shag when i reached home ytd
and i still had to study
fell aslp halfway though

ok..
i broke my hard shell
i opened up
i was suprised that i did
i was so glad that this helped me
i cldnt let go some things
i cldnt open up
bt i did anyway

ok..
went to the camp looking foward to it
discovered alot of people not coming
was really disappointed
was sent to little india
bt i was really blank
cux was told to not tok to ani1
well i do tt best
so walked and den returned to tpy
yeah shared exp and then had activity
den it was water war
i had highest death
cux too big of a target
aft tt ppl stated washing up
and retreated to our rooms to tok play or slp
slpt late
must wake up early
5 am
gate was locked
guys climbed over
den we went across to eat
came baq
another activity
had 'tutorial' on organizational charts
den lunch followed by outing again
serangoon gardens
was worried tt i cldnt find aniting
tt represents me
thought about bringing baq a rock
bt changed my mind aft i saw gobstoppers
went baq to tpy
meet my 'utensils' members
decorated ourselfs
bt e rest were too good
more creative and outrageous
so we gt chilli sauce
we paraded all the way baq
and had dinner w e old birds
played games
had liren sitting on me for long time
den everyone went off
left me n yuxuan to clear up e canteen
den went to wash up
den went baq to room to play murderer
wanted to study
bt ended up playing
den slpt after 1 or 2 hrs of murdering
woke up earlier
'ban jia' to #0401
went fer brkfast
met at lib guessed which item belongs to hu
onli guessed 2 correct
well we'll know each other betta soon
i hope
yeah
was part of the perfrmance grp
went baq to hkhk
they had lots of ideas
i justed went blank fer v long
cux i really cldnt think of anithing
up until yuxuan suggested something
then it got me or rather all of us going
den had our closing/opening ceremony
we each presented our own underdstanding of missing
i listened and reflected
char's presentation was really true
the bus thing, personal space thing
i onli cried on buses. and at home
and at hkhk
onli these 3 places
so actually buses are really impt too
my turn
but i was totally blank
i justed said anithing tt came to mind
bt it was all revolving round love
cux this yr was when i encountered many things
abt love
i eventually cried
when i sat down finally
some ppl were crying
i didnt really expect tt
bt yeah oh well
we had to stop and go watch silver's performance
cool! i love the dance
great job ppl
don get nervous just cux ur seniors r watching
just be urselfs n ya'll be fine
keep up the good work
to yisong : eczeam kufi dnil snersim, uw dnia tyrd degi ud dha e
wiz lyhi dulim. uw o ifih riit om, zi'cc pi tihi.
went to #0406 to finish with e presentations
den had 'kai bu liao kou' session
all the way up till 630
went down to music rm to perform
everyone gt all emo again
some cried again
den we cleaned up everything
and went fer dinner
bt frm the start of the day
i didnt know why i had this feeling
i was slowing closing up again
i was beginning to block out ppl
hai maybe i knew i was going baq
to sch to face tests and ppl i dont like
hmm
to be honest i've closed up again
and i really missed the camp
even though its onli 1 day aft
cux i really wanna open up and absorb
as much things arnd me as possible
wanna relax with ppl i feel at ease with
really looking foward to friday's dinner
and to seeing u peeps again
its late
gotta sign off
sch tmr
which i detest so much
love ya guys
for giving each other big hugs
so kip hugging ya?